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woke up early today,grandma was here,went straight to have a quick shower bcos im running late for work.today is like de ocbc ladies' circle thingy therefore baby cant work as they want female staff only.today was working at marine parade,de bus took like days to come los,ii was late for 15 mins.but luckily boss was not there yet.jingfu taught me de setting up stuff & then leave in a rush.overall work was okae,cept for de part where my menses cramp till ii feel like my lower part of de body was numb.qot sort of bored by 4pm,so started to play with de wax that was supposed to be use for heating up de tea.baby show up at o6pm,kind of surprised to see him reaching so early bcos he was owaes late.7pm;pack up everything wid baby,waited 2o mins for jingfu to come and collect de stuffs.after that,had dinner (katong laksa) wid baby and jf.he drive us around before like sending us home.home at o9.35.toodles.

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back from downtown east
woke up at o8am on sunday morning,bathe & rush down to meet baby,he fell asleep on the stone chair at my house downstairs,poor thing.went to work toqether,reached work early,bwahahas,first time horhhs.!work work for the whole day,met baby at yishun station after work,bus down to chalet.barbeque slack & nothing much.then limfei & co. came , chitchat till 3 plus before sleeping,but fenghua they all were so noisy , ii only managed to sleep 2 hours,wtf.!

woke up at 10 de next day,baby was so hard to wake,he sleep sleep sleep until 12 noon,then we went wildwildwet wid dom,jon,junming and co.played till evening before returning for bbq,songyu set up for everything,miss de food,oh man.!then at nite val & ben came,bought tons & tons of beers,corona,hoegaarden,heineken.slack till 3 plus before sleeping.woke up at 1oam, breakfast wid baby,sy and jasmine family.bus to baby house,nap before heading home.nothing much to say,in no mood to blog.toodles.

its a long lost feeling thats coming back to me.ii shudnt have this feeling, ii know.but its coming to me like nobody business. perhaps uu will tell me ii shud just shruq it off and forget about it.ii cant.its a strong feeling ii have for uu,its the feeling ii have when ii first know uu, simply an " ii-love-it " feeling.!

woke up at 12 noon,went down to have lunch with my mummy,neighbour&daughter.then went back home bathe and bike down to rivervale plaza to see doctor.the stupid doctor didnt even tell me whats wrong with me , jus ask me questions and prescribed me with some medicine.chunfeng was there & he said:"oh my,!whyiie uu so cheapo,come this kind of clinic."okaes,watever.and he keep criticising my bike,then apologise to me.something wrong wid him?.lmaos,he waited for me in the clinic,then accompany me to posb to withdraw money to pay him for my shoes,bought an everlast from him.then wanted to buy some things from NTUC for mummy to cook dinner,but found out fom biqqii that ntuc there was closed for renovation.so we bike down from plaza to buangkok to buy.he is so damn lousy in handling a stupid small bike,so wtf.but never mind lahhs,lols.ii did something so dumb,ii lock my bike outside de ntuc at buangkok then did ii realise ii didnt bring the keys for the lock.damn shit.called chunfeng for help,but he was not much help.all he do was to walk home wid me,lols.but all thanks to him,ii need not carry any shopping bag.hehes,thanks chunfeng!went home put down my thing then went to baby house to look for him,he slept for like 2o hours in a day,ii bet anyone can win him los,goodness gracious.went down to court for awhile,homed at o8.3o.toodles.

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crawl out of the bed early in the morning,bout 6.45am.what de hell.!it has been 94756383 days since ii woke up so early.then took a quick bathe & went down to bishan park secondnary for work,wid jolene.dono who ask me go de lahhs,don even wan to do this kind of job,waste my time only los.we started at 8.3o and ended at o3.oopm.we two were damn bored there los,did a lot of nonsensical stuff there.

after we ended,bus down to hougang mall to meet baby and hadi,not feeling well so didnt eat much,baby finish half of my food for me.then baby & ii went down to court to play basketball,weiming was there too.had a few rounds before it started to rain.baby flaq cab for me and ahbi,homed at o7.45.

standing by the window of my room , looking at the school.
ii finally understand what mr tien said to me,
ii really do feel so blank , so empty inside me.
the last paper is like just yesterday and today
im already having this wierd wierd feeling , ii swear.

ii miss sitting in the classroom;
ii miss listening to the teachers crapping;
ii miss sleeping in class during lesson;
ii miss doing maths everyday;
ii miss seeing mr tien every morning;
ii miss being late for school at least once a week;
ii miss having lessons;
ii miss waiting for the recess bell to sound;
ii miss teachers asking us to stay back for extra lessons;
most of all, ii miss studying.

ii don believe im saying this,crap,ii dono wats wrong with me,ii dono why iim saying this,dono why iim missing all these.but ii really do, ii really wish time wud go back & allow me to start secondnary life again. if everything starts over again, ii will do back the same old thing,repeat everything that had happen before, ii do not regret anything that ii have done before , cos thats how ii want things to be at that point of time.ii suddenly have the urge to wake up at 6am in the morning and go to school.something is very wrong wid me, dont think anyone of your out that will share my feelings.

im alone at home,ii can go out but ii choose not to.ii jus feel like staying at home,doing somethings that ii've not done for a very long period of time.this is very unlike me,people who noe me shud noe,ii used to grab any chance ii could to go out,but now.at this moment, II DONT WANT TO GO ANYWHERE.!

ahbi had been to camp for the past few days,ii have no one to talk to.no one who really noe what im up to everytime something goes wrong.no one to crap with me,no one to watch videos with.although she often irritates me when she is talking on the phone wit the dumbdumb hadii.but luckily, she is coming back tonight.

okayes, ii noe this blog seems a little emo, a little geek. shall stop talking bout those stuffs, the class outing date has not yet been confirmed.everyone is having their activities all on different date,cant find a day when everyone is free.niggy is pissed in choosing a date when every single one of us is free.lols.but ii think 27 is the best date so far.going to court to meet bii in the evening,weiming will be coming down.ii have nothing to do now. toodles

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heys . 4E . please confirm the date asap . tag me or msg me , 27 november it shall be for now . we cant possibly fit into a date when every single one of us will be free , so pls be understanding.

fuck fuck fuck. im pissed, actually not just pissed. is damn pissed.she just wouldnt understand any fucking thing ii say.had been quarelling wid her for at least once a day this week, and when we were not bickering, she wud just qive a darn fing face when ii talk to her,ii swear ii will never tell her anything or what im doing anymore.wud just go according as plan, ignore her totally.

forget bout her,mentioning her just make my blood boil.!wake up so early today for the paper.its been like so long since ii woke up so early,at least iim not late today.finished the LAST paper of the O's.there is this wild feeling inside me when ii finish the paper today.not bcos ii can go out everyday & run wild from now on but more to bcos iim leaving the school soon.this place which holds memories, be it good,bad;awesome;disguisting.its still where ii have been going for the past o4 years.ii cant really describe the feeling out exactly,but thats somehow what im thinking.

waited for C to pass me the shoe at side gate, baby was there waiting for me.iim so happy to see him.went yishun to have my hair done,baby dyed his hair,sat there for a few hours, and he kept falling asleep when that person was applying the cream onto his hair,lols.after that went to court for a game or two.then jaden sent me & baby home, he's so great. !

im very tired , sleeping soon. toodles

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just reach home not long, haven eat my diiner,hungry. im in a very good mood today.wake up at about 12 today,bath and went to baby house.cant wait to see him.lmaos.slack awhile at his house and went down to hougang mall.ii bought him a sony ericsson w595 cos his phone is spoilt.he is so happy.seeing a smile on his face will just simply melt my heart,ii love him so.watever.but he like it alot,saw him eyeing the phone weeks before,so bought it for him for anni.& ii bought 2 shoes from chunfeng,uu guys shud check it out on his blog.quite a lot of variety to choose from.
bought one for baby and one for myself.

there is like mcq paper tomorrow,wat a spoiler.ruined my mood.never mind, since its really my last paper.shall do tys again later.

P.S 4E PEOPLE,PLEASE SPREAD AROUND THAT CLASS OUTING WILL BE HELD ON 27 OF NOVEMBER.EVERYONE PLEASE CONFIRM WID ME AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.!

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im late for the first time ii went to work, congrats me everyone. but ii dint get scolded, ii noe jarmiel cant bear to scold me.lols,ii stand there for the whole day,serving drinks and cookies.actually is quite dumb.but the pay still okaes.and the pay will increase like 2 bucks per hour jus after one month.lmaos.im so bored there at sunplaza ocbc,luckily kion was there to talk to me.after working,play arcade , eat long john and went home.kion name is wierd?. unique?. whatever.

reach home at bout 10 plus yesterday night.mum was pissed, ii jus think that probably there is some screw thats loosened in her, she didnt even bother to listen to me explain and she start yakking around.wth.!ii chose to ignored. ignorance is blissed.ii laid on the sofa the moment ii came home,my whole body was aching, very x364537120 painful. its those kind of compressing pain beside ur spine , which will make uu feel like hitting ur own body with a hammer but uu are too weak to moved.thats what im going through.

baby finally done wid all the effing stuff,finally talk to him as usual yesterday night.he promised me to check this out but he didnt, bad los. but ii just love him de way he is :)

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ii wonder what is wrong with this fcuking world
do uu noe that even ur own mother will talk behind
ur back , tell uu she is not and qive uu a effing
face. she just want to make all her children hate her
aren't she?. ii will grant her de wish. pissed off
very x34673625 pissed off ; angry ; frustrated.
ii realised many are pissed wid parents these days
was it generation gap qrowing as time passes or was
it something else?. ii really had no idea , all ii noe
was that parents are getting more & more big fcuk nowadays.
cousin,don be so frustrated. everyone of us is facing the
same problem, she likes jovi more too . what can ii say?.


p.s baby , to be able to be with uu is the qreatest thing
that ever happened to me in my soon-going-to-be 16 years.
ii miiss uu still love.

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back from woodlands training, realised iim actually working for cafe galilee. lols,reached woodlands in half an hour,went to woodlands library's cafe galilee.
jarmiel started teaching me all those setting up of the shot machine,so many things qot to remember. oh man, ii think ii will jus forget everything tomorrow, mess up everything and make a fool out of myself. ii took some pictures of the order of the machines and cookies and everything,wahahahas.cant imagine im such a genius .!

went back to hougang,baby actually said ii can fetch him to adrain house in the morning.but he didnt even reply me when ii finish my training.wth.!iim still deciding whether to go up to his house or not to look for him.but im afraid he had already left for adrain house.so went to point to have my lunch.im so bored.

ii think im like having some terminal illness,my tummy still hurts from yesterday.if ii really do have some kind of illness,frens, please attend my funeral , im sure niiqqy will make a good speech there,he had already practised tons of time with me & biqqiie.lols.but ii will miss many of uu out there & most importantly my baby.

craps,whyiie am ii saying all these.doesnt make sense at all.feel like playing ball again,shall wait for bii to finish doing those meaningless thing first.ii miss baby so much.still have to wait till monday?. before ii can see him again.
im feeling
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toodles

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ahh, im leaving for woodlands
shall post at night again
toodles

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im having a very bad tummyache, its a horrible;disguisting;terrible;
feeling. nothing ii do seems to help much, so wtf .! ii cant stand properly
sit properly or lie properly . ohno,how ii jus wish (b) was here by my
side. its been like 160507 hours since ii like HEARD from him,
not even a msq. :( all his effing parents fault, he is like still going
to stay there till sunday. ii cant stand SUPERSTITIONS !.

went out with(H) and (J) in the afternoon,my swimming plan was all
destroyed,all thanks to his parents again. went to amk hub to catch a movie,
we were jus in time , hahas. so don have to wait at all. watch high school
musical 3, ratings ?. 8.5 ?. probably,then (J) went bedok to (H) house,
play arcade, ate lunch and slack.

then went to hougang mall,waited for (J) and (M) and (W) to come meet us, and guess how long she
made me wait?. calculate yourself, from 5.45 to o7.15 . wud uu be pissed
if uu were the one waiting, but caught up with (M) and (W) bout
quite alot of stuffs .talk bout the past , the present and the future.
serious , no joke , i swear we really did cover all those 3 while waiting for
the stupid girl.

(B) don be pissed after reading all these, cos ii wan to tell uu wat happened
while me, (M) and (W) were talking,whatever we talk bout reminds me of uu.
probably ii just miss uu too much,baby. whatever we say, ii will jus say
:"if only (B) were here,wat will he do"blah blah blah,so on & so for.
the both of them was like so pissed wid me saying that sentence that they
practically ignored me for the rest of the day.iim still waiting for uu to reply:(

p.s yahhs , back to where ii get diverted from.so after (J) FINALLY came,we walked over to backcourt, kapo told me he was there wid ahtong, but when ii reached there
he was no where to be seen, lols.so we waited & waited . derrick came down
after awhile,played for awhile. oh & ii have decided to go back to my tkd
training after such a long break,but will be jumping over from ACME to sportsteam.
sorry ahbeng sir, but maybe ii will start training next friday.training at
backcourt is not a bad idea after all, ii might get to see (B) during my
whole training, woohoo, so so so happy. & baby , II WANT TO COMPLAIN.!
derrick slap me cos he say uu were not there to protect me anymore.help me
slap him back.

got to wake up damn early tmr to go to woodlands for my job training.sianED.got to reach there like 1o am , dont ii need my sleep?. its a saturday for heaven sake,forget it,ii will forgive uu. hehehs.

last of all,got to say sorry to yanling & co , missing out on todays outing,
and ii guess ii wont be able to turn up for 16th outing too,im working, sorry guys.
btw, all 4E peeps, mrtien is asking bout the class outing to eastcoast.can everyone make it if it is on 29 november?. help spread de msg and get back to me asap.

toodles.

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arghhh , im pissed im pissed
ii jus don understand his parent at all
sometimes they were like angels and sometimes
they were worse then a devil . they forced him to go up to the
dumb place to do those foolish,superstitious
meaningless and stupid things , is like duh ! if you are
superstitious, why forced others to think the
way you you do?. its all fake . FAKE . FAKE .
anybody call me and talk if uu are bored ,
won be sleeping early

papers sort of like finish , cos ii will start to have all the time
ii wan to go out there and do all kinds of crazy stuff like what ii use to be ,
the exams really made me kind of like a changed person , though ii
sometimes still act crazy infront of some ii noe very well .
geography finish , in conclusion, iim left with science mcq ,
but everyone is already like in the holiday mood .
even those pure ones' had already let their hair down ii guess.

here , iim goiing to say NIGGY IS SO COOL.! he actually
woke up at o9 when chinese paper starts at o8. so he decided to
just skip the whole paper. oh my.! but im going to genting on
his birthday,cant celebrate wid him. shall celebrate wid him
when he come to the chalet. wahahas.

YAnling , not-twin they all are going out to town tomorrow,
still considering if ii shud go. but im sure is going swimming
wid jolene,haddi and dearest in the morning.im going to pack all my stuffs
on my table,burn all that shud be burn,keep all that shud be kept
and give away all that shud be given.
toodles

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woohoo, exams are finishing ,
finishing , finishing , finishing
im so happy now
but today social studies was
not as ii had expected . shiats
ii memorise globalisation so well cos
sexy seah say it will confirm come
out for essay , in the end ?.
it came out for source-based .
wtf .! anyway no paper tomorrow ,
but going to study geography .

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lols
going to do something BIG
woohahahas
meeting up wid mlly to study for
social studies later on
then dono at nite going ware to
have my dinner , im SUPER bored .!